There are days that I am overwhelmed with gratitude for my life. It’s ironic perhaps, with everything I have been through. I’ve been asked by more than a few people how I stay so positive no matter what I am going through. I don’t really have an answer for that, and honestly, I have my moments where stress, life, and reality get me down. But it never lasts long and I guess I just tend to find the good in everything – or in my life – no matter what the outside circumstances are. I never would have survived my past if I was not able to do that.
Today, I am in awe of how amazing my life really is. I am at peace with my past. All of the pain, and heartache and disappointment of my adult life pales in comparison to how grateful I am to be able to still remember and appreciate the good things about that last 20 or so years – and to be able to look to my future and realize that happiness and an amazing life are more about the way I chose to look at things than the circumstances or events I am forced to deal with or live through.
Some say that ‘happiness’ is an illusion….that people spend a life time in pursuit of an elusive thing, never quite finding what they are looking for. I disagree. I believe ‘happiness’ is a way of life – a way of being – and I chose to be happy every day – to be positive, and forward focused – and to look for the good in everything that comes my way.
It brings a new understanding to why people come into your life when they do, why some stay and some don’t, and the lessons you learn along the way that make you either a better person or a bitter person. I conscientiously choose to learn from the mistakes and disappointments along the way. Yes, there is regret for some of the things in my past – some that I had control over, some that I didn’t, and some that I allowed to continue long after I should have put a stop to them….but if it wasn’t for each and every moment of my life, I wouldn’t be the person I am today – and I like me – and I love my life. Every second I’ve been on this earth, every event I have lived through, has helped shape who I am, what I believe in, what I want for my future, and what I’ll accept in relationships, friendships, and in my life – and I honestly can not regret anything that has brought me to this point.
Life is an amazing journey – and sometimes something or someone comes into your life at the most unexpected time ….. and a truly incredible life suddenly becomes even more than you ever thought possible.
The sun is absolutely shining on me ….and I’m loving everything about my life….and the ‘writer’ that has always been in me and was pushed to the side for so long is finally unwilling to be silent any longer.
Happiness…it’s not something you need to ‘find’ it’s just something you need to live…every moment that you are given to do so.
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hkgraham 
Heather, simply beautiful! You are an amazing woman who has pushed thru so much and yet thru it all you have always been an encourager to others…myself included. Love your writing.
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Thank you Kristy ❤
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